Reflection of the deepest thoughts i had.

14/1/2011

2011-01-14T21:43:00.002+08:00

this blog is super dead i guess.

anyway, J2 year has began and to me...

i am still trying to adapt to the heavier workload and quick pace.

but actually i am kind of enjoying it.

like maybe no PW and chinese.

so focusing all my energy on math, chem, physics and econs.

:)) need to get my straight As!

sometimes when the surface is calm and peaceful, i guess it doesnt mean that it is REALLY smooth going....

okay, maybe it is just me again!

sigh, save me.

10/12/2010

2010-12-10T00:44:00.002+08:00

Kind of forgotten the existence of my blog already.
but since i'm rotting in front of the com, guess i'll just type abit before sleeping.

things haven been really good actually.
she's out of town and i am awfully bored without her in my daily life.
just miss everything, and i'm sure she miss RETARDED me too.
haha, just want these 21 days to pass by quickly and for her to return home safely.
training has been pretty fun but it is restricting my own private training.
i dont have time to recover and i'm not growing.
got to do some cardio to make my weight go DOWN DOWN DOWN! :(
used to wish i was 60kg!
now i still wish the same!
just that last time was hoping to increase by 3kg, now is to reduce by 6kg!
sigh! i'm a FAT boy!

tmr need to go do some running and gymming.
and research on more material for better growth.
so thats all about my boring life now! byes!

2010-11-30T00:53:00.003+08:00

Hey! i know i havent been exactly dutiful enough to update this blog.
life is just pretty plain and boring.
so there isnt much of an update..

anyway, BROWN and GREY is the new colour:)
just want to get more brown watches, Grey Shirts..
AND!!! a Brown BRIEFCASE!
haha, i think it is HOT to carry a briefcase! it kind of suit alot of functions!
formal, business, going down to town.
omg, i just have to start scouting for a suitable ones! :)
awesome.

coming home soon.
you're missed.

12/11/2010

2010-11-12T22:36:00.002+08:00

Watched Megamind yesterday! :D

omg, freaking funny and cute to me :)

LOVE THE COMEDIES :)

anyway, blogging seems really dull to me now.

it is like another time when i feel like shutting down my blog.
quite sick of having to update this useless piece of thing when i cant really write how i actually feel at times.

but oh wells, i guess this is life.

when not always you can express how you really feel deep within.

life aint great right now.

byes.

3/11/2010

2010-11-03T22:17:00.002+08:00

this is pretty long ago.
the urban attack thing.
random.

anyway, everyone is rushing for OP now and blah blah blah.
as all this busy people rush themselves to clear their workload and enjoy the holidays.
there will be others who seem pretty free.
oh wells, both parties on the other end must be envious of each other.
haha.
things has been going good for me.
well, at least that is what i THINK!
i think it has yet to hit the time when i will go like....
"what now?"
there is definitely a long list of things that i really wish to accomplish during the holidays !
but as to what comes first, how long and all the stuff.
idk, lets just say it is spontaneous.
but generally less than 50% will be completed(SAD!)
oh wells, i cant wait actually!

it will be a test.
an awful one i'm sure.
but a rewarding one i hope:)

24/10/2010

2010-10-24T23:12:00.002+08:00

today is the 7th day.

so we went to mandai to pay respects.

the burning part was really tough!!

it was not just hot, but VERY HOT!!

i was perspiring like mad!

and the face turned RED!

haha.

anyway, this week was like a rollercoaster ride luh.

i kept thinking of how stupid i was and all the regrets i have in life.

yeah. it is really dumb, shallnt elaborate.

anyway, moving on.

Chinese and PW A level examinations are coming up soon.
but i still feel passive about it..

i wonder if it is just me..

hey silly,

you've been thinking abit too much lately.

dont let your thoughts overpower you.

stay strong k?
anytime you need me, you can always call me out.
i "always ready" for you.

jiayou! push on! :)

17/10/2010

2010-10-17T22:14:00.002+08:00

I seriously miss you guys!

the meet ups were GREAT!!!

even the following day, gym and swim, and that long chatting session!!

haha, ITE college west is such a great place to hang out in! :)

but it is the company that matters! :D

you guys just make the memories look so good

and i love those times when we slogged together

all the "seemingly endless" meetings. haha.

and yeah! although all of us have gone different ways...

our friendship still remain as great as it used to be ! :)

awesome much!

and as you guys suggested, LETS GO MACRITCHIE AGAIN!

haha.

(i know i very lazy, never plan anything one!)

hope to see you guys real soon! haha:)

and JunKai, starting school tml already!

i know it sucks! but yeah, no choice! haha

lets gym together more often from now on! YAY!

8/10/2010

2010-10-09T00:04:00.002+08:00

hey! promos are over!

but idk why i dont feel anything.

like not exactly happy? but also not like upset that it is over (like duh?!)

yeah, so now,just going to train hard and study hard?

yeah i know right, promos just ended.

but there is still PW!

and i think i should keep on studying.

dont leave everything till the end like this year.

can die man. haha.

anyway, just now went to run with my brother.

OMG, it was damn tiring man!

i felt super exhausted!

my upper body felt like collapsing.

the last sprint back to the carpark was uber shiok.

those kind that you can visualise your energy bar being depleted totally by the time we end.

how awesome.

shld go for such high intensity runs next time.
:) alrights, byes!

19/09/2010

2010-09-19T21:43:00.002+08:00

(No words to be said here)

this weekend is pretty much for a change!

starting off with......

SATURDAY!

sent mum off for her taiwan trip!

but yeah, the typhoon there seems to be getting worse.

so if you chance upon this and are feeling good, give a prayer or two for her safety.

thanks! :)

anyway, after sending her off for her holiday.

i immediately became the house caretaker. GAH!

went home to wash clothes, hang clothes out and iron uniform.

around 3+ then can start doing PW.

the research can just totally kill me.

so many irrelevant infomation for me.

have to keep filtering and re-reading the sources.

then around 6pm, went to my cousin's grandfather wake.

then sat there and chit chat lo..

met MAY... but yeah, no number or whatever.

just enjoy that night of companionship.

i was wondering....

what made me stood stiff and still

when i paid respects.

i didnt bow 3 times. idk, just stood there stiff.

that weird feeling that i cannot comprehend.
Also, the wake was quite cool.

the side i was sitting, was all the OLD Gster.

then the other sides are like the YOUNG one.

multiracial man, other races were there too.

and they were quite young.

then when they pay respect as an entire group

really had that "first bow, Second bow and third"

it was followed up with their shouting of motto in hokkien.

wah, awfully cool. hahaha.

then we stayed there till 11+ i think,

then went home..

practised yoyo till like 3am?

then slept!

SUNDAY!(Today)

woke up and prepare to leave hse...

reach ulupandan CC at 12noon sharp.

went to register and continue practising.

anyway, fast forward to when i was up on stage.

it was damn paiseh! i totally laokui and fail all my tricks.

mind totally blank out.

but this year, i had fun i guess.

i was just playing and enjoying that stage moment. hahaha.

then i left immediately for queens condo after that.
the lifeguarding job is SOOO FUN! omg, i wish i could just stay there and do it for a longer time.

but when all ended, i felt quite tired. haha.

the kids were an awful lot with lots of energy! haha

i totally want to be a lifeguard for such events.

haha.

then i went granny hse, and back home!

yeah :)

now washing clothes le! yay.

tml still need to iron.

breakfast for tml already done.

wow, i amaze myself at times. haha.

you really disappoint me.

i'm glad i had an AWESOME day.

you failed to make my mood bad today.
now till never, you're gone from my mind and heart.

11/9/2010

2010-09-11T13:12:00.003+08:00

hey man!(: watched inception like two days ago.

its really awesome.

i feel so simple-minded after watching the movie.

haha. oh wells, i guess when people indulge in seeking release and escape in another dimension,

it is hard to get back to reality once you're so used to it.

so to those that have been zibi-ing(AHEMS) or like keeping things to yourself.

it is time to open up.

ytd went over to jordan hse, to study.

and also stay over to study overnight.

it is pretty awesome. the coffeeshop was awfully quiet:)

yeah, then when we went back to his hse, showered, and jordan SLEPT.

pig. lol. i studied till like 4plus then i went to sleep.

PLUS! i woke up earlier than him! haha, i'm so proud of myself.

lol. okay, but ytd was awesome :) today just going to try clear as many work as i can.

tml run the marathon.

and T4 starts! NO MORE GYM SESSIONS TILL AFTER PROMOS!

hope i can hang in there. haha. jiayou to everyone mugging for promos:)

just 2years, live it, pass it, awesome life.

8/9/2010

2010-09-08T19:26:00.002+08:00

holidays have been really unproductive.

well, tried to study, but it doesnt seem to work.

oh wells, i guess i dont see the rush yet.

though i know like there isnt enough time already, but yeah,

i just cant seem to focus that energy to books.

oh man, i dont know what is in my mind as well.

the whole thing up there is weird.

just like the big guy up there.

everything is in a whirl.

peaceout, sleep.

"just the way you are" -Bruno Mars

5/9/2010

2010-09-05T12:34:00.003+08:00

all the talking about promos just make me go sick.

idk, maybe i'm just still immature to just buckle down to studying hard.

but seriously, whatever for man.

days haven't been going exactly nice andd smooth.

but oh wells, who cares right?

i'll still just drag my feet along the way.

we're all rubber bands.

we're designed to be stretched, but push us just beyond that limit, and we'll snap.

then, we'll not be who we used to be anymore.

it's the choice we make that cause our emotions.

like you will ever understand.

22/8/2010

2010-08-22T00:44:00.003+08:00

many things are unsettled and everything is unpredictable now.
so what i could really do now is to take one step at a time.
there are still so much considerations even before a decision.
at times, i just wonder if we are deceiving ourselves, just for the best out of it.
but whatever it is, i'll just accept it for the benefit of you.
lets just move on okay?

20/08/2010

2010-08-20T23:20:00.002+08:00

i hate how nothing good comes out of this topic when we speak about it.

it was supposed to make us blissful, make us happy, make us smile, make us laugh.

make us feel that life doesnt actually suck as much as we think it does.

but, why am i not able to give you that feeling?

oh man, i really hope you are doing fine.

i'm speechless, you are speechless also.

but it will end soon. real soon.

19/8/2010

2010-08-19T23:31:00.001+08:00

it is the 19 again.
and i am doing pretty fine already.
just wonder. when will you ever accept me?
hmm..

15/8/2010

2010-08-15T23:57:00.002+08:00

Just when i thought all was well.
bam, soon-to-be rock bottom feeling.
oh this sucks man.
thought i could trust even more.
wanted to let you in even more.
but you just held up a U-turn sign.
sending me all the way back.

girl, when will you stop holding back against me?
haven i proven my worth?
i really cant understand.
and yes, i'm breaking down again.
angry or disappointed? idk.
a mix of both.

7/8/2010

2010-08-08T00:43:00.002+08:00

"when things cease to change, it doesn't always stay the same either."

just a quick update(pretty bored of blogging).

today went out to study with Awesome at yewtee.

integration was damn fun! haha, in a way xD

well, to me , it was productive and at least studying was enjoyable and fun to me.

haha, it was really great and it helped me to do work. thanks ! :D

then after studying and dinner, went home.

it was so lonely and boring at home.

took my compression shorts and shorts, change into them, and off i was.
running and running, each step i took felt lighter and lighter.

it was great. the fatigue sinking in, but you just wont stop.

quite nice :)

ran to ITE, then BPP , then back to tenmile junction, CCKSS, Lot One, Sunshine place, South view station, then turn back into the park to run 5 rounds.

ran the 6th round with timing taken..

i asked someone to help me take timing..
400m in 57seconds! haha, so cool man, was very tired but also very happy.

i want try hit 50seconds :D

I'm happy:D

omg , Awesome, i've got a lot of things that i want to tell u!

18/7/2010

2010-07-18T12:29:00.003+08:00

"change is constant."

i think as much as we want to leave status quo,

some answers will still surface.

or rather, i was just lying to myself.

there is so many things to be done and little has been actually done.

you were the motivation but oh wells, its gone.

i tried to stay strong, i tried to make myself feel like it is great just to have you in my life.

but let's face it, we cannot stay as we are now that i have said that "i love you".

everything that i do, you see it more than it should be.

i have to try to be subtle in everything i do, but it isnt helping also.
i also dunno what you want.

i guess, i am not that strong afterall.

what should i do now?

why dont you just tell me an answer?

life is crazy man.

4/7/2010

2010-07-05T01:17:00.002+08:00

"Have you ever tried to give something to people who would not accept it? You know they need it. They may even want it. Yet they are not ready to accept it."

i'll wait till you're ready:)

today was very late for KAKOS outing.

went to fish and co to eat:)

ate black pepper stingray rice:D!

and we slack after we eat before walking around.

went to play pool and it was around 5+ already.

took 174 down to KingAlbertPark to Sonia house.

1SA5 had a class bbq :)

the bbq went abit/too crazy. haha!

we started smashing cake at each other faces and body.

my pants was like GOODGAME! haha.

and we were dunking every guys into the pool.

throwing slippers into the pool also.
crazy! Sonia and Weiting's phone were in their pocket when they were horribly pushed into the pool.

HAHA!!! what a COUPLE! lol.

then afterwhich, we went to bukit timah plaza to play pool:)

cabbed home.

today expenses were QUITE high! haha.

but no doubt it was pretty fun.

1SA5 seems nice, getting better each day.

(: cool.

2/7/2010

2010-07-02T22:31:00.002+08:00

The unexpect truth smacking right on my face.

today went back to secondary school

and i must say, the school is really screwed now.

all i did was just to shake head.

"the more we depend , the greater we fall."

i must have failed as a leader.

anyways, on a lighter note, today went to play badminton with REX and JEREMY.

hope we can play on monday again:)

if you were there, it must have been happier.

oh wells. move on, Dave.

"In consciously recalling someone's name, you are not often aware of the processes by which you retrieved it."

i am still trying to fathom how our brain works.

haix, i just want to understand what that brain of yours is thinking.

1/7/2010

2010-07-01T23:09:00.002+08:00

"We act only because instructed by voices or driven by an inner tension."

hope you are able to stop letting those tension/past experience haunt you.
i really want to bring you out of it and grow together as a couple.
cause i know you are the one for me.

today went out with Rex and Jeremy:D
we went to gym and swim.
hohohoho, it was extremely fun.
it is so nice and fun being with them.
(maybe cause they from neighbourhood schools too? haha).
anyways, woke up at 1030am due to the drilling above me again.
sian man.. then went over to lot one to meet up with the pioneers:)
had lunch and sat at roof garden and chit chat.
that long lost feeling.
was just awesome when there is time off to just sit down and relax.
then went cck stadium with my two great buddies:)

i miss you.
simple as that.

2010-06-26T21:58:00.002+08:00

"So do humans also show emotional learning without conscious cognitive involvement? This could explain why our emotional responses sometimes seem uncalled for. A strong emotional response to a stranger may be a learnt reaction to some feature the stranger shares with a person we knew before."

so are you being too defensive?

today went studying with RexLee! :D

my brother:)
from 11am all the way till 8+pm

the feeling is kind of awesome :)

maybe studying AINT that BAD afterall.

haha.

anyway, i think i shld start making time more productive.

after studying for terms, it makes me feel that my life has been like wasted.

and i shld put this wasting of time to a stop. (:

shall start reading and increasing knowledge in other fields:)

first up , with us.

just hope i can gather as much info

to break the wall between us.

jiayou!

25/6/2010

2010-06-25T23:12:00.002+08:00

everyone is busy mugginng for Mid years now.

so am i:D

all the best man! :)

wanted to sms you,

but didnt want to affect your studying mood.

and doubt you will read my blog that often either.

so i shall just type the message out here.

"I know you feel everything/everyone is very scary and you are even afraid of your own trails of thoughts, but its not just you:) everyone is afraid and we all get skeptical and cautious against one another. But i hope you'd realise that both you and i have come a long way since day1 when i told you my feelings for you. Although things may have been faster for us if i didnt tell you, but i actually didnt regret telling you even though i always harp on that, cause you made me truthful again, at least, i know i wont have to hide things from you, dont have to fear that you will judge me and have negative impressions. i have honesttly told you everything + all the bad things, haha yeah:) i just want to remind you, that i am always here for you, you dont have to struggle alone. Also, i really want our relationship to be the simplest thing in my life, because i am happiest when i am truthful/nonsensical with you. Thats the best feeling i can ever have(:"

just let them flow when the feeling comes, i will be always there to give you hug and a squeeze on the shoulder.

i'll always be here with you, even as a friend:)

theres so much more i want to say.

but i hope we can chat face to face in future.(:

for now, just ALL THE BEST FOR TERMS! Go and pwn the papers and just do your best:)

dont worry about the end results, just give your best shot:) JIAYOU!

lets put that issue aside.

mind is insane.

but you made me stay on.

19/6/2010

2010-06-19T21:33:00.002+08:00

another 19 passing by just like this.

life is crazy now.

cannot even get the direction right.

idk what i shld do next also.

everyone is like TERMS TERMS TERMS!

i am like heck care. :X

LHM, knock some sense in me.
hope it helps.

its getting crazy up in my head.

and you are my solution.

17/6/2010

2010-06-18T00:09:00.002+08:00

oh man, today is simply rubbish.

i dunno what the hell am i preoccupied with.

everything that i wanted to do, just didnt go well at all.
and i went to buy a shoe on impulse.

waste my $40 . haha..

seriously, things are getting out of hand in my mind.

i think... i am not taking this well.

i really want to read your mind.

i cannot focus.

"This is the way you left me

I'm not pretending

No hope, no love, no glory

No happy ending

This is the way that we love

Like it's forever

Then live the rest of our lives

But not together"

hope it wouldnt be us.

17/6/2010

2010-06-17T01:40:00.002+08:00

today went prawning with Ben, Dexter and Bingchong..

haha, it was awesome! NOT!

it was damn boring! wah lao!

the four of us were like stoning and giving up! haha.
oh wells.. so much for an experience..

and we realised we didnt want to eat the prawns either.

lol.

shocked. but have yet to read the msg properly yet.

oh wells. very weird..

16/6/2010

2010-06-16T00:10:00.002+08:00

shit, i screwed up big time.

i made you angry twice in a day.

omg, i am seriously sorry.

i shouldnt have pushed the limit.

the feeling is really awful.

i am at a loss of what to do now.

shit.

2010-06-14T22:21:00.002+08:00

the road in front of me is really dull and boring.

its a clear road, yes. but .. this is not the road i want to walk.

year 2010 is crazy.REALLY.

idk. there is damn alot of things in my mind.

but it just wont come out.

and its torturing. to have them all in my head.

i seriously HATE now. hate it.

will i revert back?

ahh. shit.

i am so sorry.

shit, you know....

i just need you to do something.

but its damn selfish of me.

idk. i am damn confused.

i really hope you can just take over.

but the chances are slim.

this is insane.

12/6/2010

2010-06-12T14:11:00.002+08:00

just reached home from yeong's hse.

party was fun.

though the starting aint that great.

but the ending was awesome.

the best part: the phone call.

next best: the drinking part.

seriously, dont think about it anymore.

cuz it will die down soon.

just screw it , heck it, and let's train hard.

think about what we talked over the phone.

stop hiding and face up to it.

remember, i am always here with you.

and i am not funny about this.

its not funny when you are not alright.

get over it soon.

i am always here for you.

but you just have to start trusting me that i wouldnt leave u.

9/6/2010

2010-06-09T23:59:00.002+08:00

Lifeguards camp ended.

it was damn slack,

i kind of didnt like the camp.

like wasted 3 days of my life.

anyways, exco selection is screwed up.

i just hope the J2 seniors does sth proper before they leave.

i dont want our batch to be screwed.

scheming people.

getting backstabbed.

its damn sian that feeling.

anyways, decided not to accept anny other post cause i want others to get it.
i am like FORGET IT.

each second, i feel of sick and disgusted with ...

why, just why ruin my god-damn-awesome name?

seriously, why have you become that way?

someone needs to tell the J2s about you.

before things are confirmed, we need do sth.

but the thing is i cannot.
cuz i am part of the running team.

lifeguards need someone to step up and save this.

4/6/2010

2010-06-04T15:03:00.001+08:00

Lifesaving 1,2,3 cleared.

next is CPR, then BM:)

Abel!!! all the best man.

you are a damn good Training Officier.

you've done so much for us,

will pass one :D

3/6/2010

2010-06-03T23:18:00.003+08:00

oh man, it is tough!

i hope everything will go smoothly.

may we be blessed.

holiday week 1 is ending and status check for hmwk.

which is zero, untouched..

haven even take my physics hmwk, and the rest of the hmwk haven dig out from my files.

shucks man, disorganised and slacken.

results sucks and i am damn fail now too.

maybe i am suited NEIGHBOURHOOD style.

seriously. it was a bad move.

things starts fading.

serparation seems inevitable when it hits the holiday.

1/6/2010

2010-06-01T23:50:00.003+08:00

cool,, we are are mid way of year 2010.

seems pretty fast this year.
but this year, i feel damn stupid.

in everything.

moving on, today was lifeguards training again.

did the test items and sculling and deep water resuscitation is still difficult for me.

got to keep practising till i get it.

also have theory.

hmm, must pass! ahh!

yoyo competition is coming up too.

will i screw it up like last year? hmm.

hope not.

but there are just too many pros out there. haha.

30/5/2010

2010-05-31T01:31:00.002+08:00

today went for SPCO concert.

the feeling was really nostalgic.

hmm.. kind of miss CO actually.

but i guess i am not that enthu about performing music as much as the rest are. haha..

woke up then i went to westmall to buy long sleeve shirt for lifeguards..

tml going to have training and thursday going to have exams already.

kind of scared that its just like for 4 days away from today.

need to practise really hard now! rawr!

and tml onwards i have to start studying(rather doing my hmwk)

also need to resume my training for my body. haha

today concert was.....

hearing songs that were once played before.

seeing the style and action of percussionist on the drums.

just make me want to go down and play the drum.

kind of miss 240808..

that was really a super fun time. miss you guys man.

but its like shattered and broken.

oh wells.. past memories:)

nostalgic. but its the past man, lets move on.

you did great today already.. dont worry too much..

maybe you guys are just too busy with each other's life that you guys kind of not high tgt.

but its normal man! haha:)

as long as you guys still can see and chat with each other occasionally!

today i met up with my CO friends,, we also like abit awkward..

but i guess its normal.. it takes time :)

so jiayou! :DD

29/5/2010

2010-05-29T12:36:00.002+08:00

holidays have arrived but i guess it is still the honeymoon period.

when it hits monday, the load will start to come in again.
oh , how i wish these 2 years will just zoom past my life.
its plain torture.

ytd was quite screwed up uh?

first went to my aunts house.

pot luck.

also celebrate my parents wedding anniversary.

but i left at 3pm,, didnt cut the cake with them.

took 855 to vivocity to meet Ben.

he and his scandalous JIELIN! haha.

then we head down to bedok mrt and took 401.

the bus took freaking long and sth damn embarrassing happened while waiting for the bus.
LOL. then we arrived at SKATE PARK!

and we called them, it was actually at skating ring. -.-

feel like killing Ben. lol.

then from area F, we walked to area C! omg la.

one hour of non stop walking you know?!!!!

and we arrive there , it was dinner time.

lol.. ate burgerking nia.

waste my time. haha.

east coast totally stinks now.

the smell of the oil is simply disgusting.

wait till i get the photos from Ben, then can show your how bad isit.

oh yeah, lets go prawning next week :)

maybe , just maybe, things wouldnt have turned out this way.

this sucks, and it will continue always.

i am back to square one now.

26/5/2010

2010-05-26T23:18:00.003+08:00

Term2 has ended.

its crazy . grades have hit the rock bottom.

and life aint any better as well.

all i am thankful, is that YOU are in my life.
shall not blog le. dont really feel the blogging mood today.

probably cuz hand is aching after playing keyboard smash.

haha:)

open up my girl.

i will sit with you through your rollercoaster ride.

and i'll hold you hand and accompany you throughout the entire ride.
squeeze my hand when you are scared and i'll hold them tight.

i'll never let you go.

25/5/2010

2010-05-25T22:55:00.002+08:00

life just sucks now.

just want to run away from reality.

fall into my own world of comfort.

fall right into depression and just not get out of it.

i want to run , run and run away from this place filled with insanity.

literally..give me the stamina and strength to run endlessly.

i just want to drop dead, gasping for air, feeling that struggle for survival.

maybe, just maybe, i will cherish life again.

now that the feeling is back, i am once again lost.

but this time i am so alone.

how i wish i can tell u.

but you are just to busy with your own life.

that there aint any room for me to spend even a minute with you if i wanted to.

its crazy how u lift my life up with just mere words.

but it just seem to be an illusion.

just what are you thinking?!

i really want to know.

23/5/2010

2010-05-23T16:42:00.002+08:00

today went to do CARWASH! :D

it was cool man! i totally enjoy such CIP.

though i dont think its very meaningful cause its just fund raising,

but can hands on and do sth ! :D

now my class is thinking of lots of CIP.

we all agree that can bond tgt. haha!

anyway, life is going to have a BREAK in a weeks time.

but honestly, it aint no break at all.

there are like a never ending series of hmwks.

what turns me off now is actually maths, can u believe it? haha.

but i told myself, i need to keep the momentum, if not i am really dead.

today after carwash CIP, had PW meeting.

things are looking good for us.

hope the project gets approved and we can start getting down to work.

:) i hope my life can be as fulfiling and as happy as it is now.

a balance between work, love, exercise and play.

hope things can smile to me as it is now.

ILT , HERE I COME!

girl, you got to stop thinking everything is weird.

open the doors to your heart for me to know you.

To a girl that i've hurt badly:

firstly, thankyou for sharing.

you made me know that there is such thing as unconditioned love.

when i read, i really felt that what you've been going through is crazy.

but i cannot give u any promises as well.
neither did i expect that our random meet ups would have caused you so much pain.

perhaps lets keep it this way, or just let things fade away real quickly.

and may you have the strength to let our relationship go and say yes to the guy wooing you.

i'm sure he will be able to love you better than i did.

at least he is more sincere than i am.

and if he is willing to wait, that shows that he really loves u.

all the best.

"Remember not the bitterness but the sweetness that once occurred in your life, for it is not worthwhile to forsake the sweetness that you are able to taste because of the bitterness that once put you off."

-hope you are able to move on too.

21/5/2010

2010-05-21T23:00:00.002+08:00

today got blue slip to watch netball finals.

so cool :) like got so many rules.

then one of the injury that our player kena was quite bad.

had to go hospital to stitch . -.-

so violent.

i need some life.

19/5/2010

2010-05-19T20:40:00.002+08:00

today went to see physiotherapist and podiatrist.
its freaking exp man, paid $26 and $38. just like that!

my poor wallet. :(

anyway, physiotherapy is more or less done for me. :)

i just have to not slack for my stretching.

then i need to strengthen my leg muscles.

podiatrist was the big truth.

cuz i been observing my legs also.

then true enough, its my alignment:(

now i am damn disappointed.

my joy for running have to be reduced!

cuz i cannot push myself too hard.

at least for now.

i need to quickly stregthen! rawr!

thanks for being there for me.

i thought you wouldnt sms me till i did.

but u surprised me.

thank you:)

quickly, i am still waiting.

cannot just crash my hopes.

need to give some serious thoughts in it!:)

18/5/2010

2010-05-18T23:26:00.002+08:00

the gang has started their actions.
isit just a hunger for power ?

you guys kept silent and plotted you moves.

now that you know it will be elections, you leap out and try to act like the leader.

like what i leart in my leadership journey.

"dont act like a big brother when you were never there. cause it shows nothing but your desperation to gain power."

i just want to get the jacket things done and over with.

lets choose our right leaders.

fight for something we truely wish for.

not just an act to get your power.

fulfiling you promises then is merely a sign of obligation.

Presidents-to-be.

i smirk at the thought of our disgusting agenda.

Leaders are never the first, we will be and shall be the last.

for we stand behind to ensure that everyone is safe.

when will the true leader stand out from the crowd?

i need you at this time of battle.

16/5/2010

2010-05-16T16:36:00.005+08:00

Event of the year!:D
Singapore YoYo Competition 2010
12th-13th June.
Cineleisure.

hmm, shld i take part? hmm..

16/5/2010

2010-05-16T02:25:00.002+08:00

Saturday's training was pretty fun!

managed to improve our plunge in , which was really great.

had that sense of acomplishment.

this week workload is CRAAZY!

and i have yet to start doing anything to remove them.
i shall, i should.but i wouldnt. haha!

LHM, you wake up!

what happen to you? omg , this is so not you.
if it hurts, let it out. you dont have to bear everything alone.

you have friends whom you can trust.

you have me as well.

we are all ready to catch you when you fall.

at least for me, you've been there for me.

so now, why wouldnt you let me be with you?

i'll share your sorrows.

please dont keep it within you anymore.

smile, cheer up.

but first, let it out.

14/5/2010

2010-05-14T23:09:00.002+08:00

finally it has come to the weekends.
training tml morning.

today has been rather different, rather weird in a way.

i wonder whats with me.

thinking of my identity

13/5/2010

2010-05-13T20:46:00.002+08:00

Today is a really bad day.

first, i forgot to bring my swimming trunks to school.

had to wear Aric's swimming trunks for training, i look awful in that! haha.

then when reached MRT, i realised i forgot to put my EZlink card into my wallet after the run ytd.

sian!

had to buy mrt card. :(
then i reach lot one, wanted to go buy my mp3 for running.

the W series of sony.

in the end, no stocks.

which i think would not be coming out anytime soon.

cuz now they developing the water resistant one, shiok!

then now have to wait even longer:(

and now i am home alone.

pangseh by my parents.

they eating in some hotel, then i like so lonely at home.

haha, today is just bad:(

i feel that you are so far away.

when can we break the ice?

anyway, thanks so much for helping me in the jacket stuff today.

you were a great help:)

10/5/2010

2010-05-10T20:40:00.003+08:00

how we exchanged glances for that short instance.

that moment of awkwardness that could be felt even with all the crowd.

those few seconds, kept replaying in my mind.

how i wanted to just pick up my phone and sms you.

but there is something holding me back.

hmm, i hope to receive you sms/call soon.
i miss you.

life is just not right when you are not around.

i want to fight hard, for you to change too.
i understand how comfortable it gets when you are so used to keep everything in you.

you find it weird to open up, to tell your problems out to someone.

but surely, you will feel better when you let things out.

you may be your friends' pillar of support in many incidents

cause you are like the mature one among your cliques.

but no matter how strong you are, you still will fall down at times.

and when you do, i hope you can take my hand that will reach out for you.
dont brush me off.

i know you are superwoman, but everyone needs support.

i'll be your sidekick:)

i am afraid, of losing you.

please dont go.

8/5/2010

2010-05-08T23:38:00.002+08:00

today had our first saturday training from 11am to 1pm.

it was suurely fun! haha.

at first, the guys were rejoicing that FINALLY our training has the sun beating down on us.

but after training, when we reach back home, washed up and gave a stretch.

we realised.

oh no, sun burnt.

i kind of feel damn sian.

cus the shoulders kena.

that is like the most sian to me, other areas i can tahan actually.

shoulder kena i emo! haha.

okay anyway, today was seriously unproductive.

i cannot seem to understand where i am steering in life anymore.

each day, i wake up, just to go through the motion of my scheduled life.

i seriously do not comprehend what we are trying to achieve in our lives.

is everything we persue, practical , realistic?

i think it is retarded and everybody who is in A levels now are just doing it cuz they have to.

its a stupid process that we have to go through to finish our education.

but is it useful?

not at all man.

learning science in ideal situations when it will never be.

come on, be real man.

it is so for exam sake.

after 2 years, it will just be deleted from our brains and thats all!

2 years worth of bullcrap.
someone needs to step out , for a change.

a smarter change.

how i wish i had the strength to do so.

its not whether you suck at words.

all it matters to me, is there you are here with me.

and everytime, i think of you when i need someone.

i wonder when will we be able to be together.
is impossible really the only answer?

i hope it is just for now.

but when will "now" end?

7/5/2010

2010-05-07T22:52:00.002+08:00

finally another week has passed,

its been rather tiring though.

for this week, although we only had four days of school.
hmm, things aint going as great.

but i can't put my finger to it as well.

i guess the feeling is just hanging there.

been really confused lately.

5/5/2010

2010-05-05T17:45:00.002+08:00

today was crazy man.

though timetable was pretty short, but it still drained me.
and i still fell asleep for a couple of minutes in lecture today.

at times, i think about how passive i am now.

or rather, slack.

it wasnt like this.

but i just seem to become nonchalant and things just started getting worse and worse each day.

haha, am i seriously cut out for A levels i wonder.

you dont have to be a coward.

cause i'll be here to lead you on.

i am here to receive u, to hold your hand and face the world together.

dont turn yourself away just because you had a bad experience.

learn from it, avoid it, make that experience be a part of you.

be stronger now, and let's go.

1/5/2010

2010-05-01T10:58:00.002+08:00

omg, this week has lots of hmwk!

and still have two subjects to study for.

CA for those in this week:(
chemistry and economics.

SIAN MAN!

on a lighter note, the lifeguards jacket has pretty much settled down.

now got to wait for official matters.

hmm... feel like swimming again.

haha.

"Just SHUT UP and TRAIN!"
i want this to ring in my head when i am tired during gym.

okay i am damn random i know.

but my brain is kind of dead,

for a morning start.

i am dependent on you, for strength.

28/4/2010

2010-04-28T00:18:00.002+08:00

today went to see doctor, for my knee problem.

got refered to Alexandra hospital for check up.

thursday is the appointment.

hmm.. the waiting time was DAMN LONG!

2 hours waiting time.

had to go bukit batok polyclinic cuz CCK polyclinic renovating.

after seeing docs, went back to school.

had LIFEGUARDS! :D

yay man! it was freaking fun! haha.

okay, its late and i'm tired.

nights!

24/4/2010

2010-04-25T00:23:00.001+08:00

omg, today was super boring.

all my plans were ruined!

everyone was busy with their ownn plans.

anyway, it just sucks! haha

i was stoning and slacking.

not productive at all today..

pushing PI to tml..

i got a feeling things will be screwed.

open up open up.

i'm here.

23/4/2010

2010-04-24T01:03:00.002+08:00

today was speech day!

very fun!

seeing all the Sec4s again! haha:)

took lots of photos and they are still uploading in FB.

anyway, it was simply great meeting u guys up again.

alot of great times, fun and smiles. :)

great man!

hope you guys can meet up often too! :)

come for mentoring!

really hope to see you guys serve as well.

tml will be swimming and gymming.

but i was thinking, why hasnt studying come into the picture.

omg, PI!.xD

22/4/2010

2010-04-22T22:35:00.004+08:00

hmm, tml is speech day already.

really hope that ppl will sign up to be mentors,

i mean, come on, people once helped u.

why are we just so selfish?

and they are still giving us CIP hours,

so why not just help?

dont give bull crap like "i need to study",

who doesnt?

its disgusting when people i thought will help,

ended up rejecting cause their own selfish aim.

what comes around , goes around.

dont seek help when you dont want to help others.

i am being critical.

yes, this is DAVE KOH for you.

get that right.

pissed.

21/4/2010

2010-04-21T22:21:00.002+08:00

today didnt go to school.

*cough cough*

so i went to the library at 11am.

studied all alone till 5pm!

OMG! freaking AMAZING right?!

Mugger Ultimate

i did like all my hmwks. haha!

and do tutorial 7, with blanks cuz of modulus functions.

okay anyway, PI is still stuck.

and we left 7 days. OMFG!
i am praying for a miracle, for my brain to have an idea,
to piece the entire puzzle to a complete nice whole. xD

i'm just lazy. haha!

girl, all the best for your Biology paper tml.

may the Lord be with you:)

18/4/2010

2010-04-18T23:05:00.002+08:00

it's a torture without you.

2010-04-10T23:31:00.006+08:00

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and at gym today, a lady bought hers @ $80.

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7/4/2010

2010-04-07T20:48:00.002+08:00

each time i pray , i pray of everyone except myself.

but this time, i pray that for the strength and endurance and determination

to not stress anymore.

i believe its clear to you.

if time can proof it, then i know its worthless.

but its our choice, like we both know that nothing will come out of it.

but i hope you give a chance.

for us to be true to ourselves.

it aint too fast.

5/4/2010

2010-04-05T22:14:00.002+08:00

probably every JC student is going like

"i lagging behind, with hmwks not done and everything is stacking "

sort of speech.

but i just want you guys to know that everything will be done when the time calls for it.

we will have this unexpected time, with an unexpect strength and motivation to push us all.

well,, i too have hmwks that are untouched but supposed to hand in ytd.

haha,, but i guess i will miraculously complete it. *prays!*

haha, but i'm serious here.

just dont stress yourself out now.

its a two year marathon.

its not how fast you can go now.

is how long you can still go.

all the best.

girl, i hope that everything is going smoothly for you.

i know it is selfish of me to be pressurising you few days back.

i will constantly remind myself.

and i got a feeling, that nothing will come out of this.

cuz you seem REALLY busy.

haha,, but i hope as we adapt ourselves to JC life,

i can have this magic, to make things work out for us.

some amazing encounters have occurred for me, for things about you.

and its you that lead the way for me.
jiayou girl:)

i'll be with you. :)

3/4/2010

2010-04-03T00:31:00.002+08:00

I should have stay clear.

just smile.

i'm speechless and helpless now.

all the best for your secondary school 's competition.

dont cheer till you lose your voice k?

do take care of yourself.

jiayou.

31/3/2010

2010-03-31T21:56:00.002+08:00

i hate it when i have no options in my hands.

helpless.

desperate for help.

31/3/2010

2010-03-31T20:47:00.002+08:00

OMG , tml is already April.

how fast time pass man!

hmwk is piling up. have yet to do my kinematics tutorials.

and the lovely deadline is just tml.

haha, god bless.

and PI, i am doing alternatives. hmm.

alot have said that task 1 is easier.

but oh wells. i just cannot get a clue out of it.

and i have been feeling really guilty.

neglecting yoyo. :(

i hope i will be able to focus on it too.

its been VERY LONG since i created a new trick.

29/3/2010

2010-03-29T22:31:00.002+08:00

today was Half day for ACJC.

super awesome!

was released at 10am.

went to gym for an hour like this.

after which , went to citylink mall NEWYORKNEWYORK to eat.
omg, exp -.-

then headed down to Dhoby Ghaut's minds cafe.

super fun man! haha.

cheap and fun. :D

next time must go such places to chill and slack. :)

tml going for morning jog with lifeguards:)

then will be Gym, followed by Mass PE.

ends the day with lifeguard training. haha

tml is training day.

all the best DAVE! :D

28/3/2010

2010-03-28T23:22:00.002+08:00

today went to marina square 's Pariss international buffet.

:) it was pretty decent. :)

other parts, i shall not say.

hmm.

after reaching home, feeling was totally off.

i was like all alone in the house, in my very own world.

doing things, ignoring my parents and brother.

packed my bag and left the hse for bpp.

it was a lonely trip.

sat near that seat.

and she came into my mind once again.

all of it, it was too much to handle.

its been awhile since i thought of her.

and today shall be the last day.

over you.

once and for all, Dave Koh's back.

you aint coming my way anymore.

i am driven by myself . thanks.

to someone special who accompanied me the entire day today.

thanks:)

28/3/2010

2010-03-28T00:16:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY! :DDDDD

hehe, its great that another cycle has gone past.

this shows that we are closer by a year to start working and for you to retire!

cant wait right? :D

hang in there just awhile more :)

and reap the rewards as we drown you with money for you to enjoy

alrights, Fun-O-Rama 20 has FINALLY ended!

thank god!

would like to thank all of my friends who have come down to support ACJC:)

hope you guys enjoy it as much as i did!

alrights, hmwk is undone, starting to stack.

i REALLY got to force myself to allocate time for hmwk.

like SERIOUSLY. not kidding.

I'm not over you.

24/3/2010

2010-03-24T20:58:00.001+08:00

its been hectic and tiring recently.

got to endure and push on.

all the way!

i shld just enjoy and let nature take its course.

21/3/2010

2010-03-21T17:28:00.002+08:00

Last Day of March holidays already.

the raining season has started i guess.

and i want to have my waterproof lifeguards jacket ASAP.

hmm, hmwk is a mess.

and i am totally drained from the HuaYi Secondary Camp as well.

i'll try to do as much as i can.

i will need the strength and determination right here.

Maybe even the best of the leaders, will disgust someone.

I'm ashamed as a leader as well.

but why do we see leaders as perfect humans?

thats impossible. i just dont get it.

its a fine line between learning and coaching.

19/3/2010

2010-03-19T01:20:00.002+08:00

Its again 19, i just realised.

too hectic to bother over this issue ever again.

moving on, this is just a short update.

march holiday has been a really "relaxing" one.

becuz i have YET to start on my hmwk mountain.

Lifeguard camp was awesome!

my Group, SKIP wonn! :DDD
yay! haha,, then tml will be trybe Hua Yi secondary school camp.

till sunday.hmm

by then will be damn shag.

just go sleep when i reach back home.

so i guess monday then i will start on my hmwk. hahah!

hope i survive then xD

alrights. i better go to sleep. if not i am going to be late tml!

nights:)

15/3/2010

2010-03-15T00:02:00.002+08:00

hey guys, recently i haven been blogging.

and i dont feel like blogging anymore.

perhaps lifee is getting hectic and the usage of computer is pretty much limited.

also, its time i erase all the memories of my past.

live an entirely new life in ACJC.

not that i want to conceal my past, but i'm just different there.

to this point, the truth or lies.

is not impt anymore.

i guess i should face reality that u never loved me before.

i finally had a taste of my medicine.

and its time, i put everything down.

thinking back, i was really silly in the past.

life is much greater as a whole, being a carefree me.

but i guess my temptation of wanting to be attached will soon control me.

alrights. i'll just end today's post now.

1/3/10

2010-03-01T21:38:00.002+08:00

so fast! March already. hmm..

today was pretty relaxing.

missed school, so i woke up , going for a swim with my sister.

then i went home to get changed and off i was!

met up with Cheryl at lot one KFC for breakfast. :DDD

then we talked and talked. :)

left at 12noon for Cineleisure!

caught ''Dear John" with KAKOS! :D

too bad we didnt take any photos today.

haha!

the movie was pretty okay.

i am just quite against touching movies. :(

but anyways, it was fun :)

then we went to Takashimaya to eat and drink. chit chat abit.

and home sweet home.

for me rather, i went to teck whye mac.
read up on my lecture notes.
phew, its tough.

then to my amazement! i saw KEN NG! haha

he and his long hair again. -.-

haha.. then after which, i walked to lot one.

and wasted my time there.

homed @ 8pm.

when they had to part without any chance of discussion

and decision was made solely by one person.

i felt really awful.

couldnt they have worked things out then?

what if, he died during the war?

could he have known the truth behind her decision?

it would have been a regret.

obviously, show is still a show.

a happy ending.

but what about reality?

will we end up being sweet and happy together again?

or am i just living in the past by wearing the anklet.

hoping that u will love me again?

this is... nothing more than a dream now.

26/02/10

2010-02-27T00:34:00.002+08:00

school has been really fast.

tutorials and lectures are just like "come and go"

"catch me if you can" style to me.

but as i try to struggle my through all the studies and academics,

its about time that i settle in to my CCA.

so what about SHOOTING now?

i seem to have abandon this dream, just like that.

Chinese Orchestra. oh man, i seriously feel least attached to.

LifeGuards, is simply awesome.

i love lifeguard.

in fact, i am going to practise tml again!

and got to really start mugging over this remaining weekend.

but LifeGuard simply makes me enjoy myself totally.

immersed in another dimension of happiness , where stress is not the issue.

okay, my laptop is spoilt too.

the USB ports have problems.

very sian. cannot use my mouse

cannot play L4D2 with my friends.

sian:(

22/2/10

2010-02-22T20:15:00.003+08:00

Hey! this is my present from KAKOS!!!!

thanks man! love you guys. haha :)

i shall wear it for the next OG outing :)

now i am finally back at school.

tutorials have just started as well. and the load is really sinking in.

from just Day 1, i start to project myself in having the tenacity and endurance to push myself.

Physically , i shall be stretch as well, in the upcoming days of school.

with mass PE tml, Cross Country on wed and Swimming on Thursday.

i shall test myself both mentally and physically throughout this week of hectic school :)

i pray for strength.

18/2/2010

2010-02-18T21:01:00.002+08:00

haven been blogging lately due to my sickness since 7feb.

its awful man, missing schools, seing doctors and eating medicines.

today went to CCK polyclinic again.

then had to go down to Alexandra Hospital to do some test.

was suspected of having TB.

did blood test again, and had to do a chest X-ray as well.

super hate the blood test man!

the needle is like AHH!

lolx. i hate it.

then X-ray was quite an experience:)

quite cool man, though did a couple of Xrays before.

but the machine at hospital is WOOT! cool. xD

then both tests were negative.

i dont have TB and they cannot really pint point whats the problem with me either.

the highest possiblity is nose viral infection. oO

so i am on medicine again.

didnt get warded though:(

was thinking of celebrating birthday in the hospital.

such a lifetime experience man! haha

okay anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BROTHER LEON! :D

as well as , JEHIEL BOH! xD

BUT! it will be my sister and my birthday in 3 hours time! :D

yay! happy birthday :DD

alrights, i got to start my tutorials.

everyone is like completing or completed them.

me? haven even take my foolscap out.

lolx! got to go! :)

Fun O Rama

2010-02-06T11:56:00.002+08:00

Hey Friends!

My school's Fun-O-Rama is Back!

and it is not a typical food and fun fair carnival!

its really very fun! and their stalls are very creative!

even will have the splash and dunk station!

how AWESOME is that?!

I'll be having to sell the coupons soon.

and i have to reach a minimum target of $400 .

so i REALLY need you guys help! :)

and you can get to tour my school too!

i will bring you guys around to see how cool ACJC is!

so start saving up kay?? must support me! :)

4/2/2010

2010-02-04T23:01:00.002+08:00

hey guys.

speed is picking up real soon.

submitted my subjects already.

its kind of dumb, those who got A2/B3 for O level Pure Physics

took H2 physics.

and i got A1, but took H1 physics.

i began to question my decision making skills.

CCA sign ups are done too.

signed up for Shooting, Canoeing/rowing, Lifeguards and Chinese ORchestra.

haha, but i hope i can get through the trials for Shooting:)

and i am tanned! yay! lolx.

awesome! gtg!

byes. :)

29/1/2010

2010-01-29T23:39:00.002+08:00

First two days of orientation is over and we are all gettting excited for monday.

haha, I am so into the college i am in now! :D

lazy to tell you guys more about it.

i am very exhausted as well.

so nights!

28/01/2010

2010-01-28T21:50:00.001+08:00

ACJC rocks!

Red , Blue and Gold runs in my blood!

Vulcans, ALL THE WAY!

HoT HOT HOT!
:D

27/01/2010

2010-01-27T19:40:00.002+08:00

ytd went out with the OHsomezx family ppls

today went out with CO chairpersons!! :D:D

hmm, watched tooth fairy ytd.

and today legion.

BOTH movies at west mall! haha

it was kind of ,,, weird. lolx

but anyways!

tooth fairy was funny. :D

legion was hmm.. the starting was super L4D2 style man!

first the angel was nick, then the fat man was coach and the main character was ellis.

haha,, overall, i felt the movie was kind of bad:(

and i hardly say that movies are bad!

though i badly wanted to watch the movie , "legion", it kind of disappointed me. haha

but i think there will be legion2.

ACJC councillor called.

phew, i was sleeping man! haha

but oh wells, got to go school tml.

haix.

27/01/2010

2010-01-27T08:46:00.002+08:00

oh wow, my parents woke me up at 8.30am.

i tot like what happened.

i was like half awake that kind.

then they asked what school i got into.

i jiu, oh ya hor.
then saw my phone, 9 new msges.
dont have from some unknown number! haha

but still half awake, so went to see all 9 msges.

finally saw the what 74688 isit? lolx

whatever, then read it.

Anglo-chinese JC.

then tell my parents, jiu lie back on bed, type,

i got acjc.

to all the ppl who smsed.

haha, my alarm was st 9am!

oh man, up so early.

tml even worse!

plus sunburn is still .... haix

okay, so for ppl who wanna know.

i am going ACJC.

thanks:)

byes!

a whole new life journey, without you this time.

25/1/2010

2010-01-25T22:19:00.002+08:00

i made a VERY dumb decision today.

which was to sleep when i suntan.

lolx, i stayed super long in the sun.

BAD DECISION!

i am super burnt now.

worst thing is that i cannot walk!.

my thighs are like burning and the muscles seems like it is super tensed up.

those who saw me today, can vouch for my badly burnt body! haha

and now, i am trying to make my body cool down!

which is like really mission impossible! haha.

MAY have to cancel my activities.

if i still cannot walk tml. haha!

but i pray that i will be able to by tml.

if worse, i Good Game.

got to get well before thursday.

shucks man, sorry guys.

but i really want to go out with ur!

i must recover!

NUNCHUNKS!

2010-01-23T19:47:00.001+08:00

OH man! i couldnt wait for the real thing to be shipped here.

so i made one first! haha.

i am just too impatient! xD

okay gtg! :D

23/01/2010

2010-01-23T00:27:00.002+08:00

Most likely will not be able to enter ACJC le.

haix, hopes are dashing.

i just want my nunchunks right now to divert my attention away.

i wanna stop thinking.

posting is released on 27 jan.

28jan report to the school posted.

good luck guys.

photos!

2010-01-22T01:17:00.003+08:00

here are the photos! pretty little though! haha:)

All 5 of us! Cai e missing though:(

Candid shot! :D

Jun Kai got too angry with zilian and self timer ! he took it for us! haha

Junkai took it! haha, see la! my face missing. xD

Us on the suspense bridge, it was freaking HIGH!

YAY! :D

ps. the stairs was a killer! haha

21/01/2010

2010-01-22T00:44:00.002+08:00

So went out with Junkai, Minxuan , Deon and Hong Xiu!

it was UBER FUN! haha..

seriously , hella of fun!

after all out hardwork tgt and going through hurdles together,

we celebrated tgt! haha, hope can go out sometime soon again!

at least, before school starts:(

so we met up at 11am!

but 11.30pm then took mrt cuz we were late.

then took mrt down to bishan , with empty stomach.

it was like a slow torture.

and we FINALLY reach bishan!

didnt eat in Juncti8n.

went to coffeeshop to eat.

oh man, the food was YUCK! haha.

and we bought some snacks and drinks for our trip! haha.

so we bused down to MACRITCHIE!

yay! the journey begins , after a toilet break. xD

and imagine me having stomachache throughout the whole journey! haha.

oh my gosh right?! haha

okay! as i was saying.

we walked route 3, then change route.

like dont know walked how far in the end. x)

when walked to treetop there, wah!!! almost die! haha

legs were like threatening to buckle any moment when we were on the suspense bridge.

then we took photos! haha.

the walk continues in the dense forest!

we were thinking if we went the wrong way when we saw condon tapes infront of us.

plus a signboard that says "rapid water flow".

omg, we can totally see the gush of the water flowing! haha.

so, adventurous as we are, we decided to walk across the few planks of wood called bridge.

haha! then we saw army guys.

they were doing trekking too!!!! haha

we spoke and chatted with them as we go along.

met another couple or two amry groups.

haha, really fun.

but it started to rain very heavily and we got to seek shelter, hmm.

the wait was extremely boring!

kind of dampen our moods.

but when the rain subsided into a drizzle, we continue our trekking!

to bukit timah !

then when we were walking upslope,

this heavy duty lorry truck stopped beside me.

and the uncle inside was doing hand signal, asking me if we wanted to walk down the whole road.

i was like, shocked? haha, but nodded my head.

and he was like signalling us to get up.

so nice! giving us a ride. cuz of the slippery road.

but the truck was really high!

minxuan and i were like heaving our whole body up before being able to get on it! haha

junkai , deon and hongxiu sat at the back, since it was empty.

the remaining 7km walk was covered by the vehicle.

we alighted at rifle range road and continued walking down to bukit timah shopping centre.

we crossed to the opposite side to eat and drink.

ended up not finishing my food.

cause of my stomachache -.-

after eating, it was 5.30pm then.

minxuan and deon wanted to WALK back to palm garden.

JK, HX and i was like NO! haha

so they walked and the three of us took 67 back.

i went home to bomb the toilet and took my bball and ripstik along with me.

met up with the ladies after awhile and went to play pool!

it was really exciting!

and the girls started learning too. haha

played till 9.30pm and went to the swimming pool there to slack.

chatted about MUSIC, which threw me into a pool of question marks.

cause i no longer follow the charts.

then around 10+pm, i finally reached back home..

alive and kicking! :D

omg! i wanna go out with them soon!

play beach volleyball or water polo?

haha,, it will be damn fun. xD

hehe,, excited! :D

tml will be going jordan hse to swim and gym. :D

then got to teach tuition, cannot go bball:(

haix, its been awhile since i get to play.

20/01/2010

2010-01-20T23:22:00.002+08:00

my gosh, my body is aching really badly.

tml still going macritchie with mx, jk , hx and deon.

haha. :) CO CHAIRPERSON 's outing! :D

friday going to swim and gym.

just hope my body dont fail me.

19/01/2010

2010-01-19T23:37:00.002+08:00

oh! again the 19th! haha, didnt realised it till like 9.30pm!

xD looks like i am finally over it! :D

and GUYS! believe it~! haha.

today uber tiring! haha.

exercised alot! haha

went running too!

but my fitness like cui liao! haha.

then went to give tuition. haha..

then i now super tired. xD

my order for my nunchaku is done! yay!

16/1/2010

2010-01-16T01:13:00.001+08:00

Just a sentence from you.

cutting my wounds open.

but this time, deeper within an instant.

16/1/2010

2010-01-16T00:43:00.002+08:00

i am really lazy to blog these few days.

i may not continue blogging anymore.

what do u guys think?

shld i continue?

tag me ur answer? :)

ty.

14/1/2010

2010-01-13T23:58:00.002+08:00

Everyone is fussing over JC or poly.

i just wanna say.

its you guys' CHOICE!
dont get swayed or whatever.

be open and take it as advice.

but follow ur interest and passion IF U CAN!

anyway, i submittedd mine le. :)

ACJC, NJC, SAJC, AJC, CJC, PJC.

yay! :D

11/1/2010

2010-01-11T20:32:00.002+08:00

today was results taking.

without further ado,

shall flash my results out.

My results : 4 A1 3A2

L1R5 : 8

English : A2

Combine Humanities : A2

E Maths : A1

A Maths : A1

Physics : A1

Chemistry : A2

Chinese : A1

okay, i know i shldnt be complaining.

but different ppl , different expectations.

i am disappointed that my chemistry got A2 , i was really really confident of my A1.

i think i was overly-confident.

haix.

To those who did well :

really wish to congrat you guys!

continue doing well.

and choose the path you want!

the best is, find joy in what u do.

To those who did not meet their expectations :

As long as you guys have tried,

i really believed that we are true to ourselves.

and what matters now is that we look forward.

we have cried and shed tears.

its time to wipe them off and move on.

lets be strong and tell ourselves that we will pick up from where we fall,

and do better in future.

Lets Strive to Do Better from Now On!!

All The Best , My Friends.

Now, i really like to thank someone special to me.

when i first started knowing you,

i was always in safe hands.

you could give me that incredible feeling.

and when i felt like all was gone from me,

you stood by me.

Giving me the strength i needed to pick myself up from where i fell.

helping me up with no hesistation at all.

i was fortunate to have you in my life.

when we were out studying, it was also you that kept me going.

you spur me on to study and study.

i cannot imagine if i didnt have you.

will i attain such a score?

when we were tgt, i just could not study SS alone.

it feel too boring, i did not have the motivation at all
.

haix.

though we started our journey tgt, we could not finish this journey tgt.

but i really hope you choose the next journey well.

choose a journey you want and go through that well.

i hope, next time, i can congrate you , shaking your hand:)

i failed to cherish you.

but i want to let you know,

i am really thankful, that you were once in my life.

i am really thankful, for all the things that you did for me.

i overlooked many things.

i took you for granted.

i took the things you did for me for granted too.

i am sorry.

All the best.

Once again, thankyou.

iloveyou.

10/01/2010

2010-01-10T23:06:00.002+08:00

tml is the sentence already..

everybody is getting all nervous and anxious over tml.

lets just hope that we achieve our expectations and everything goes good;)

good luck and all the best guys!

10/01/2010

2010-01-10T02:01:00.001+08:00

yay! on my lappy now!

finally done the set up part. :)

now just surfing around.

hope tml can do up L4D2 :D

9/1/2010

2010-01-09T23:05:00.002+08:00

Sec 1 ` 2010 orientation ended with a Blast full of performances from all of them!
great job guys!
sorry for not being there today.
couldnt wake up.
(rather, didnt even know i slept)

anyways, today is really great!
i got my laptop! :D
yay! 12midnight , i shall officially on it. xD

monday is the results, really anxious.

photos

2010-01-06T23:18:00.002+08:00

ALrights..

even the photos fail to be uploaded! haha.

go my facebook see if u interested. xD

byes!

1/1/2010

2010-01-01T18:18:00.002+08:00

HEY! Year 2010 has finally come.

anyways, its going to be another tough year ahead.

31 Dec 2009,

after break camp, went home to sleep.

then go eat dinner with family @ karu curry restaurant! :D

then i managed to go for the countdown @ EastCoastPark!

YAY!

but i had to go alone from CCK to BEDOK.

DAMN SIAN! haha.

went there, idk man! didnt really felt like a countdown.

just tonning outside for me. haha.

it was like couples everywhere.

andy and i kind of sticked tgt and chat throughout :)

WHOLE NIGHT DIDNT SLEEP AGAIN! YAY! xD

then the SUNRISE was faiL!

cuz clouds were covering the horizon.

then around 7+, packed up and BUSED to JURONG EAST!

I TELL YOU!!!

the stupid bus driver, FREAKING slow!

very very very slow! haha.

we all slept in awkward positions in the bus.

andy hit his head to the window.

mine hit the corner of the chair.

ouch man! but we were like knocked out in the bus! haha.

reached back JE, rushed to toilet.

after that, go LOT ONE MAC to eat BIG breakfast! :D

yay ,, first meal of 2010 is LOVED! :D

then went home.. slack slack slack.

then go Palm Garden Suntan and Sleep.

:D thats my day!

Tml is going EastCoastPark again!

with MOECOLC`08 peeps! :D

1pm @ bedok mrt station!

see you guys there! :D

31/12/09

2009-12-31T13:05:00.002+08:00

Just came home from CO CAMP! :D

quite fun, though its 2D1N,

but i enjoyed myself.

the night was seriously the best! :D

we talk talk talked, so much! haha

the campers slept at 2am.

and The Four Chairmans, plus MX and Joanne, Plus me! :D

talked for a very long time!

till like 4 or 5plus then weitting went to sleep.

and about 6am, limin and i were bored that we played the paperplate game! :D

we played from 1 to 20, 1 to 30, 1 to 40 and 1 to 50..

By then already 7am le! haha.

and they played games, till break camp :)

Totally didnt sleep for ONE WHOLE NIGHT.

bathed le, now i going sleep :)

nights!

28/12/09

2009-12-28T20:42:00.004+08:00

Some Over -due photos from the Alumni Dinner '09.

i dont know if i post it up before.

but here it is, still. :)

Mr. Kong! Our 4 years Level Coordinator, Mr Liew!

Our Ever - Friendly Vice-Principal, Mr Lim Yu Kee! :DD

"UGH! I FEEL ZOMBIE AFTER A DAY OF WORK!"

today in the morning went to school!!
so freaking tired! haha.
then went for CO and after practice,
walked over to lot one with KaiJuan and WenYi.

hmm,, then went over to Jurong Point to meet up with the rest.!
:D
we caught the 5.20pm movie for the chipmunks show!
yay!
after the show. supposed to go eat dinner at lot one,
but ....
was quite tired, and didnt have the mood to be in a group.
just need some time off, alone.

when you came into my mind,
i knew my efforts were just deceiving myself.

photos

2009-12-27T01:24:00.008+08:00

Some PHotos of Prefect CAMP! :D Gays! :D AHH! xD Fortune Cat! Boss JIAJIE and I! ARTISTIC! :D DONT TAKE ME !:D Twist! (looking at cheryl's camera!)

26/12/09

2009-12-26T18:42:00.001+08:00

just now went to Woodlands there to find the skateboard shop.
bought new set of wheels:D
it feels uber nice la! haha.
like the feeling, TOO NICE that kind.
i didnt like it. xD

then went back home, changed and go bball.
tried dexter's ripstik, super dislike it.
haha!

after bball, went to sunshine place to eat.
:D and the MANGO was super sour la! haha.
dexter was like offering me. tsk.

then went back home.
i modified my wheels.
took it out.
wash it dry and now it spins UBER LONG!
haha,, but dunno safe anot.
tml i want to give it a test run:)
hope it feels good. then i can dont change wheels.
:D hope it is okay! :D:D

alright , going to shower now.
byes!

25/12/09

2009-12-25T14:11:00.004+08:00

Merry Christmas to all! :D
hope your wishes come true :)

OKay man! This year Christmas doesnt feel a thing for me!
haha.. so been rotting at home for the past 2 days:(
didnt feel like going out..
but going to go downtown east for dinner tonight.
all the way to pasir ris man!
i think i the car ride, can like sleep.
then emo, then look outside! haha.
so many things man.

realised been very cranky lately.
haha.. maybe things will be better soon:)

Jasmine and Dave. :D Fooling around! xD

Fun's over, time to pack from 1 to 100 :'(

OMG, its Jasmine with her Green Tea ! :D

Yosh!